I want to Repent but..

Allah swt said in al-Qur’an Verily, you (O Muhammad SAW) will die and verily, they (too) will die. (Surah 39: Ayah 30) The Believers Are Like Brothers To One Another; So, Promote Peace And Reconciliation Among Them, And Fear Allah, That You May Receive Mercy. (Surah 49: Ayah 10) Prophet said: "None of you truly believes until he loves for his brother what he loves for himself." [Bukhari & Muslim] “ Prophet said: "Each of you is the mirror of his brother, so if he sees a fault in him he should wipe it away from him." [Tirmidhi] We are friends and brothers in Islam.. so accept the advise from a Muslim that is concerned for his brother/sister.. Remember.. that you are a slave of God.. Have we prepared for our after-death? Every soul shall taste death [Surah 21: Ayah 35] Did you think, where you would be at the end of your life? Did you imagine for a moment when you will be alone in… Your Grave? Don’t you know that you will die? And that you will be in a grave? Don’t you know that you will be judged for what you say and what you do? The messenger of Allah said that: "On the Day of Resurrection the feet of the son of Adam [man] will not move away till he is questioned about four matters: how he spent his lifetime, how he spent his youth; from where he acquired his wealth and how he spent it, and what he did with his knowledge." Did you not read the saying of Allah (فَوَرَبِّكَ لَنَسْأَلَنَّهُمْ أَجْمَعِيْنَ عَمَّا كَانُوا يَعْمَلُونَ) Which means: (By your lord, we shall ask them all what they have been doing) Brother.. isn’t about time for you to stand and think about yourself and your life? Have you thought of what you have done and what you have brought for your after death? The door of Tawbah (Repentance) is still open.. O slave of Allah.. rush and repent.. repent to Allah… Don’t let desires mock your bright intellect, which Allah, the lord of the worlds, gave you.. O slave of Allah.. rush and ask Allah for forgiveness.. Rush before death.. and repent to Allah and stay steadfast to your religion.. for, our life is the life of Islam, whomever is ignorant about it, is mislead and lost.. Did you not read the saying of our Prophet: “The strong is not the one who overcomes the people by his strength, but the strong is the one who controls himself" like when in anger. The strong is not the one who gathers people around him, while being arrogant with the slaves of Allah.. If you were strong, you would protect yourself by learning the Islamic knowledge and preserved your organs from any unlawful doing.. Then even after that your hearts hardened so that they became like rocks, rather worse in hardness And surely there are rocks out of which gush forth streams and truly there are others which when split up, water then comes out it and indeed there are others which fall down for fear of Allah (Surah 2 : Ayah 74) O slave of Allah, know: That whether you wore the silk and the gold and silver.. or if you wore ripped and the patched clothes.. you are still who you are.. yourself did not change.. You are still yourself.. Why not, when you know surely that your end will be in a .. Shroud ! Rush brother.. rush to a repentance to Allah, for, the door is open right in front of you.. Don’t let the damned devil fool you and lead to your torture.. Say to yourself, o self, I want for you Paradise.. don’t drag me towards Hellfire.. Allah said: (وَمَا اللهُ بِغَافِلٍ عَمَّا تَعْمَلُونَ) And Allah is not unaware of what you do.” [Surah 2: Ayah 74] Brother, you have to rush to acquire the Islam knowledge and increase from it.. Fearing God is what benefits in this life.. that is Obedience to Allah.. And among Obedience is to learn what Allah made obligatory upon us so that we obey him properly.. The door is open, what’s stopping you from repenting? Overcome the damned devil, repent to Allah, and rush to the sessions of Islamic knowledge And remember that the messenger of Allah said: "The one who sincerely repents form his sins, will be as the one who has no sins" (إِنَّ الْحَسَنَاتِ يُذْهِبْنَ السَّـيِّئَاتِ ذَلِكَ ذِكْرَى لِلذَّاكِرِينَ ) Verse 114 of Surat Hud means that the good deeds erase the bad deeds. The Messenger of Allah mentioned in many sahih hadiths the interpretation of this verse, among that is what was related by Muslim in the sahih that the Prophet of Allah said: "أيعجز أحدكم أن يكسب في اليوم ألف حسنة يسبح الله تعالى مائة تسبيحة فيكتب له بهن ألف حسنة ويمحى عنه بهن ألف خطيئة" It means: “Would anyone of you be powerless to gain one-thousand good deeds a day? He can do that by making tasbih (to say “subhan-Allah”) one hundred times, by doing that, he will have one-thousand good deeds recorded for him and one thousand bad deeds erased for him.” Our Prphet (sallallahu ^alayhi wa sallam) said that one who says: "أستغفر الله الذي لا إله إلا هو الحي القيوم وأتوب إليه يُغفر له وإن كان فرّ من الزحف" This hadith means that the one who says: “I ask Allah, the One Who is the only God, the Hayy, the Qayyum, and I repent to Him” will be forgiven even if he had fled the compulsary battlefield. * There is also a condition which has to be satisfied in order to earn this reward, it is the validity of the Creed, which is a condition in order to earn reward for the deeds; without the valid creed one does not earn reward for the deeds. The validity of the creed means that one has to be properly knowledgeable about Allah and His Messenger not only uttering the statement of Tawhid - La ilaha illallah (No one is God except Allah) -. The basis which is a must for one to be saved from Hellfire in the hereafter and to earn the reward for the deeds is to know Allah and His Messenger properly. Then after that one has to be steadfast to Islam until death i.e. to avoid the blasphemous sayings, acts and beliefs. By doing that one will have every good deed multiplied ten times at least, thus, one will be among the winners and triumphant ones. The meaning of the validity of the creed is that one has to be on the creed of the Companions of the Messenger of Allah sallallahu ^alayhi wa sallam, the Tabi^in (the followers of the Companions), the followers of the Tabi^in, and those who followed them. The accurate belief and creed has emerged from verse 11 of Surat ash-Shura: (لَيسَ كَمِثلِهِ شَئٌ) Which means: “Nothing resembles Allah in any way.” So Allah is not like the creations, He cannot be imagined in the minds, He does not need any of the Creations, He does not need a place, He does not occupy a space or a place. He created the throne as a signe of his great power, and not to rest or sit on it, because He is clear from needing a place and from weakness. Allah exists without a place, without resemblance and without needs. He sent the Propehts to guide the people giving good tidings and warnings. Blessed is the one who lives and dies on this creed. O Allah, we have wronged our selves severely, forgive our sins and let us die with a good ending and accept our Repentance To be a good Muslim, ask Allah to forgive you and start doing your Obligations.